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In explosions of rainbow glow
April came with seeds to sew
In murmuring whispers of lo-fi reverb
trees rustling was all that we heard
After three days of setting suns-
we landlocked lovers were looking for sun
Found it hiding under the docks at about mid-June
freedom, was whispered, it's coming soon
But the rain falls heavy with a ozone smell
and the life of it all is a scribbling hell
Pummeling madly at my window screen
in a million broken drops of cycling sheens
Heaved from heavy laden clouds in my April sky
the air is permeated with its dripping highs
The lows of the cattle and the bird call sings
in the mornings that now April brings
And the fervor, the unwavering, the steady pound
of millions in spring fever, screaming loud
Yelling, jumping, telling Now!
Now is the time to move about!
There are bruises on their knees and thighs
they run and push and kick all night
They win their wars, they lose them too
they sink down into the wallowing blues-
And reds and purples and violets of spring
the pungent yellows, the green sprigs
Laid out in wet grass with soft yellow dogs
watching clouds overhead and the lingering fog
The fever catches and bites in hard
its hard not to gallop and trot and charge
Up and Down! and Up! and Down again!
the bruises will heal, the bones will mend
Theres no fever like tomorrow, the promise of today
so let's go kill April til the 1st of May

C'mon

Oh on a sunday afternoon
shouldn't you be sitting on a pew?
No, the rain it falls too hard
you find yourself dancing in the park
listening to the songs.

Flowers Never Bend With The Rainfall- Simon and Garfunkel
Acid Tongue-Jenny Lewis
Blood Bank- Bon Iver
Four provinces-The Walkmen
Walking On a Dream- Empire of the Sun
God Save the Queen- Nouvelle Vague
Skeletons- Yeah Yeah Yeahs
World Spins Madly On- The Weepies
Cosmic Dancer- T. Rex
Dandelions in a Bullet Hole- Sarah Harmer
Summerwind- Ole Frankie Blue eyes
Ain't No Sunshine- Bill Withers
Bonnie & Clyde- Serge Gainsbourg and Jane the F*CK Birkin
Islands in the Stream- Feist
Whenever you're Ready- The Zombies
All This Is That- Beach Boys
Cinammon Girl- Neil Young
I Found Love- The Free Design
Unforgettable- Nat "King"
If I Should Lose You- Joe Williams
Im Your Man- Leonard Cohen

Collegiate Environment

I'm absolutely terrified and excited and horrified by the idea of college now. Just as the early April news of colleges burnt through CVGS with congratulation going out to those that got into such prestigious entities such as Princeton, MIT, University of Chicago, and the great colleges of Virginia, and all the news of wait listing and rejection letters blew through, I was left a little shocked I could say. Maybe, more frightened, of just the process; the essays, compiling portfolios, applications, money, wait listing, rejections, life decisions. All of those things that culminate into that one step of adulthood that it is almost necessary for all Americans to take in the current environment. College. I know its for me. And, even though, my parents would love to persist in the reasoning that I don't have to move away to go, that I will always be around to sort and wash the laundry properly and to play soccer in the spring and ask them permission to go to the movies. But, college is that one step, that one really big step in the path of adulthood, and its one that is almost completely necessary in every Americans life in this current environment that we have created here. College is a necessary institution that anyone should be ready to partake in. Right now I realize that I'm not ready, and so my persistent moans of "I'm never going to college" is just the fear releasing itself in a less unhealthy way than others. The stress of SAT/AP/Gov School exams all got piled up into two or three weeks, and this fall looks as far away as it ever has. I'm not even halfway into the clear, even with almost one month left and maybe this is why college is just college. It's not yet tangible as much as I walk around UVA or watch college soccer games. But I haven't lost hope in going the distance with my education. I just have to find that niche, the one that I hope a university might facilitate. Not only is it a place to grow, but it seems to be the place to find yourself, the place that brings people together that should be together and the place that either strengthens or unties those bonds that were made in High School. An adjustment to where caring is only slightly considered by both teachers and students alike.

I probably shouldn't be scared of college. But for now I'll remain unconvinced as to what my proper attitude towards it should be. I guess I'll just have to consider the fact that I'm still young, as everyone over the age of 25 likes to tell me. But, young is almost never an excuse, it is only a pardon, just as college is not a requirement, but a gateway. A gateway that I'd really love to get into.

Fill it in.

I'm bored with writing. Back to lists!

Clothed in?
A sweater, jeans, white tee, it's chilly

Weather?
Sunny and cold as....as (insert dirty joke about oprahs vj here)

Best love song ever?
God Only Knows - by the cute Beach Boys

Best making love song ever?
Caress Me Down - Sublime

only rivalved by maybe Strange Love by Little Annie

Song in my head?
Lay Me Down by Dirty Heads

Eating?
Enchilladas ...Yogurt

Wanting?
that movement
whispers
uh, uh
BOOKS!
photos with flowers...and me :[

Needing?
Air
Breathing
Loving
the sun (I'm a flower)
summertime (oh sublime, where the livings easy)

Oggling?
watches
the 70's prom pictures
WALT WHITMAN
your car
that car (that blue beatle)
rap stars girlfriends
spray paint ...temptation
you
words
adrogynous males/women
IDYLLE blog
The Magic school Bus
color pigments
art in all its flashy beauty
fountains
Interview mag
the color red
flowers that you pin on
cloth

Take a bite out of life.

Touch your lips,

then stop

Then do it again.

Texts I send
Chat I write
Words I speak
in a day:

"They have ultra sharp teeth to bite your earses off"

"Your face makes me angry"

"Is there anything sexier than a ginger fro??"

"He's never going to cut his hair, and so you'll never kiss him. Good luck on having children NOW."

"Give me my rootbeer before I reach for your crotch!!" (To my sister)

"Kenya is the same as Ethiopia"

"I want Jack White to be my friend"

"Papau New Guineau smells sooooo good"

"MERRR"

"You want to make love ice tea?"

"Shorter dresses mean easy access...just saying"

"When you were dancing you moved your arms"

"I wouldn't kill you, just throw angry cats at you"

"learn about races and their food likes, so that way you can exploit them."

"I realize that that ....... ohmygod, man walking cats!"

"I forgot to tell you, but today a ginger ate my homework"































mmmm life is tasty

Grievances

Grievances:

Girls that hold your hand when you tackle them in soccer
bitchy assed teachers
spicy food at night (like now)
no phone calls ?
dress lengths at the knee and below
touchy touchy people
screamo bands
bruised knees
bad haircuts
un focused cameras
red faces
crying people

{Juice}:
saran wrapping cars
petting
tanning like a bear does... think about it
low necklines
watching movies between classes
writing poems in my head

then forgetting them


Better:
seeing the full time boyfriend
not talking
cursing at the other team
puching/bruising/pushing/bullying
love
rings
shoes
live music
crashing birfdays
unforgettable saturday nights
Pop rocks
mocking birds in pet stores
really cute dogs
sarcastically making jokes about how good you look

You look so good even Mick Jagger would be jealous.

smiling with your canines
Heathers
that tingling sensation at the back of your legs
Harry Potter pick up lines
drawing elephants with unusually large trunks
mustaches
bagels

Teal

I used to write the most amazing haikus is fifth grade. They went something like...

There are large golden fields
swinging with wind
hear them humming

Hmmm...

I have a dress, it is a spectacular teal color. I want to wear it everywhere. It's not very appropriate for dancing, but I feel it looks like greek, grecian, Goddess atire. I have to decide what shoes to wear, and earrings and all those girl things.

It's very late on a thursday night, but it feels gorgeous outside, and I had a nap in the sun...and am tanner now.

A little music-

Don't feel like dancing - Scissor Sisters
Electric Shock- Gorillaz
Dirty Dishes- Deer Tick

They are all stuck in my head, and I wanted to share.

Let those

Let those weathered hands
full of sand
fall down upon
upon the ground
lift up the weight
the hills
the crates
take your burden to the shore
earth movers
here
shoveling palms
there
build castles from fine rock
they build it
all
upon the
sand
with extremely large
weathered
hands

Let those lungs full
of billows
made of paper
3 inches thick
breathe in and
out
move the earth
about
and make it move
around
and round
make wind fall hard
upon the scars
where the
rocky
underbelly
of the land
shows

Let the feet of turpentine
and sap
pick up aaaaaalllll the pieces
of sand
of earth
of dirt
and deposit it in one sitting
after running
deep in and across
this earth
make a mountain!
make the earth move!
make it turn!

Orange/Spinning

I took a bite out of an orange rind
but I couldn't quite break the skin
and the acid dripped slowy out
from the teeth marks I had bit in
and the zest hit my mouth
like the thorny edge of the sea
bites down hard and cold
against your bare legs and kness

I knocked hard on your door
and you let me right in
we slipped on the yogurt poured
all over your walls and floors
why was there dairy there?
we weren't really sure
but we slid all over your house
on those slippery curds

Now we are down by the lake again
skating across on the cellophane
we were walking all across
and running back again
our shirts are getting soaked
and the sun is getting wet
put back on your overcoat
the world, we are splashing it